The Philosophical Mind

Today was exceptionally free for us,thanks to Mr Yap who finally loosen his suffocating clamp on us. Not that Physics is ever that bad, in fact its the most marvellous thing that could ever happen to the human race, but sometimes our mind do wonder how much of these laws, theories and hypothesis can we take.
An excerpt from Newton saying "a vast ocean out there waiting for us to discover, while we are only slowly picking up a few shells on the shore out of curiousity"(or at least he said something like that lah!) do tell me that learning is indeed for eternity.
Enough of the scientific theories again. Conscience is screaming out for me to be more emotional, eventhough being emotional is at times not such a good thing, but this is still what makes us all human. So can i really ever be so emotional?
At times I do feel like a stone had replaced my heart, where the brain do take control of all emotions and not let anything stop me from being what seems to be the most practical thing at the moment. The infatuation people seems to be having, do tell that obsession with a fantasy will crushes hopes and dreams along the way, but then again, which being doesn't long for a chance to taste the sweetness of innocent young love. AW!!! Tze Min...you really need to get a grip!!!
Seriously...enough of my philosophical rantings. However, i do feel the need to let out all emotions in me so forgive the drama-queeness of me here. I do hope for the very best to the people out there who have been frustrated and dissapointed with their own emotions time and time again, worry no more, it is indeed just another process of growing up.

Happy Birthday To Lee Khai Mun!! :) We will sure miss you after you finish your degreee..!! :)

Vanny On The Lose

And it's gonna be another boring day with 4 hours of Physics tomorrow. Not to mention , Mr Yap decided to make a 6-8pm class tomorrow specifically for TEST.

SIGH.

It's actually 15 minutes to 2am on 24th of July and I'm sitting in my roomie's chair; doing completely nothing but slacking my FAT butt on the chair.

And come to think of it, I feel so completely depressed because apparently, I killed a bug a few hours ago. MIND YOU! It was unintentionally. It was right in the middle of the room. How was I suppose to see this tiny little creature?

Arrrhhh.. I don't know what to do now. I'm trying to study my Physics. But nothing would go inside. NOTHING, I tell you. NOTHING. Right this moment, I feel like the most laziest person on EARTH! Weeee....

Oh well, today was kinda akward as we had a ENL presentation and most of us were in formal clothes. ARHA. Bobby was with his TIE, STRIP T-SHIRT and LONG PANTS. Hmmmm....?? He looked kinda cute though. HAHA! Actually all guys in my class looked smart in formal clothing. And guess what? I decided to wear a dress anyway where every other gal in my class decides to wear skirts and slacks. AGAIN - I was the WEIRD one.

Oh, did I forget to mention that my roomie is playing match making with Simon for me with Simon's roomate. I kinda forgotten his name. Han Zhong? Zhong Han? Haha. Oh WELL. Im not going to meet him anyways. These crazy blind dates never work out. Eeeeeeeeeeeee..............

I guess I'm back to lame ol stories about my life. I'm trying not to miss you but every second that pass my day, I can't stop thinking about you. I just can't stop thinking about what u are doing right this moment, or perhaps, do you even think of me anymore?

-------------------------I WANT TO KNOW----------------

PIGS !!! ^@^

SOMEBODY PLEASE SAVE US!!! we've been pigging around for the whole day!!! eat...sleep...watch movies...chattin....doing nothing in particular... and EXAMS are just 2 WEEKS away !!!!

MOVING ON

hmm...obviously a very long time since i last blog...
well quite a lot had happened this past few weeks, but since my 'other half ' seems to be such an enthusiastic blogger, i guess there really isn't a need for me to blog all the time (a lazy blogger speaking :p)
SO let's see, i guess i'll just fill in whatever Xiao Yun haven't put in here. The most life altering devastating BIG NEWS is ------------ WE WILL NO LONGER BE ROOMMIES!!! there....guess some may say "oh??? no kidding??? you two can actually SEPARATE???"

Oh well, guess we have to move on eventually...

So is this for the better or worse?

i might never know...just that time will only ever tell. ( and no we didn't quarrel or fight or whatsoever in case you are wondering along that line..)
Everyone is practically reminding me bout the FINALS coming up in just 2 WEEKS time. oh well, i'm such a big fat slacker when it comes to studying for exams. The thought of doing some other more err...interesting? stuff do comes up to my mind ever so often...

Guess the race is on again, the ever depressing rat race. Now since that the Marchies are joining us trying to beat us back in this race, there seems to be practically no excuses not to study...SIGHSSSS..........

It's Not Just Sometimes

Sometimes,

People leave because they hate you.

Sometimes,

People leave because they can't stand you.

Sometimes,
People leave because they envy you.

Sometiems,
People leave because they found someone new.

Sometimes,
People leave because they don't care about you.

Sometimes,
people leave because they can't trust you anymore.

Sometimes,
people leave because you made them feel so small about themselves.

Sometimes,
people leave because you hurt them too much to bare.

Sometimes,
People leave because they love you too much.

Sometimes,
People leave because GOD loves them more them you.

But it's not your call to call someone, too fake, to be your friend. Friendship is nothing about who came and never left or who known you the longest. It's about who came, made a difference, doesn't hurt you, doesn't down grade you and doesn't do anything that would only benefit themselves, or probably just to prove you wrong even if you done something wrong.

Friendship is not a test. Friendship is not a game. Friendship is just part of your life. Just merely ONE small part that would not make a difference after you leave this life and come back again. It really doesn't matter. Friends are friends when they say so. But sometimes, friends leave for a reason you might not know.

Sometimes,

People leave and never came back.

SHREWWWSSSS

Sometimes you feel like you wanna get out of your room? And you're thinking of climbing that little window of yours?

Neh. Juz kidding. Haha!

SHOES.My Life Obsession.

Shoe collection from NYVan & TzeLMin Designs.

A whole family of them!


Sneakers & Sports Shoes Family.

High Heels Family

Toilet Shoes? Haha..

Ouch~~ Too many shoes? I can't get enough!!

* Notice the 2 cute and adorable teddy bears and turtle. :D*

2nd Life Obsession.. Awwwwwww..... Hehee..

Don't worry. You're important too. Haha!

YES YES! I almost forgot. My bedtime story.

~XOXO~

My Deepest Condolence to, Ong Tzong Meng and his family.

You don't know me well but I hope you would be resting in peace by now. Your kind deeds will always be remembered. May you be reborn into the Amitabha land or be reborn back into a human form to seek us all again. Hoping all the best for the family to find the courage and strength to continue on with your life. We share your sadness in this great loss.

-Amitabha-

16th JULY 2007

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO KEVIN VAN DORT AND SI LON!! YOU GUYS HAVE A ROCKING BIRTHDAY YEA! ---- XOXO *Hugs*

..........

I'm sorry Sebastian. It's not the same.

Another Weekend

It's Friday again and it's time to end a perfect, long and tiring week. We had a Maths test last Thursday and it was JUST SCARY.

Not to mention it's super hard and tricky, we had to do it with the March semester people too. Aha!! That's the thing..

Poor Victor. He must have been too stressed up that he practically walked straight to the glass door. OUCH. I feel his pain. I REALLY DO! (NOT)

My classmates have a little no-no thing for the March intake.

Why? Because they believe that most of the March intake people are stucked up and kinda arrogant. Not to mention SMARTER?

I definately DISAGREE! Maybe there is one or two special people in the March class but then again, January has them too what! Haha! I was sitting towards the right. Surrounded by people whom I never seen in MY LIFE!

SORRY. EXERGERATED.

On my right, there is Eunice which I assume is from the March Sc stream. She seems nice. I was looking pretty scared before the test and her smile was there to save me. Weee...! Hahaa. And on my left is.. ----- errrr--- what's his name again? HAHA! There, you get my point? I'm surrounded by people whom I really don't know. He's probably from the March Sc Stream too. Oh well. It doesn't matter. He was kinda cute, thought. Hehe :D In front of me was YON HUI. - the ever so dedicated genius who tends to get so excited even for a drop of rain. YES! Him. Not far from there was DESMOND. Probably Theeba's new boyfriend, father, son - oh whatever? Haha!


RECAP! Where's my Tze Min!!?? Right at the front. JUST PERFECT.

I was busy looking around for familiar faces ( there are 100+ students in the class) when all of the sudden I heard...

"You may begin NOW. You have 2 hours right from NOW"

WHAT??!!!

- I started doing the paper and the questions nearly gave me a heart attack. Nah, I predicted that would happen.- I just can't understand why some people just have the time to go to the toilet when there is not even enough time to finish the paper.

On Tuesday during our Awards Ceremony, NG HOE NIAN, should be given the prize for the "BEST JOKER EVER", "MOST CHILDISH & ADORABLE" and last but not least! "
" MOST FREQUENT TOILET VISITS"

2 hours just passed and that was it! It's all over!! Everyone was wailing and practically tearing their minds off the paper. Okay. Joke of the day. It was from Victor again.
This was what he said to me.. :)

"Hey! Can you pass this test paper to Yonken?"
"Oh. Errrr........."
"Ey, sorry ha. You're not Vanessa heh! Sorry sorry. I must have mistaken you with someone else"
"Ha? Pardon me? Ehh... But..."
"Sorry. Sorry. My mistake. Wrong person." ( He ran away )

Okay. So he was being suppperrrr BLUR---- an effect from the knock on the head? Or perhaps he practically forgotten who I WAS! Eishhh...

To the guy I met in the library, the MPH pathway, B3L14, and Audio Visual Room, Downstairs of Block P and N, Nilai Kopitiam - I WANNA KNOW YOUR NAME!

Okay. Am I being crazy or what? But I practically exchanged smiles with him everytime I bumped into him. Not to mention, he into Buddhism too... ! I wanna know YOU! Definately a charged electron worth knowing.

I want to bump into you again. Seeing you smile makes my day. Makes my everyday a day!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO WEN LIN ( Xiao Lin) and DESMOND! -----XOXO *hugs*

A three pages of Queen's Guide award essay..

Hey, y'all wanna know something... Well, in my course now...I have one module which is call Character Development. It's something like a moral education back to our secondary life. But it's a bit different since it's not easy to pass this module but also not too hard. It all depends on your effort you put on it.
Some of the requirements that need to fulfil in order to pass this module are 10 hours of community service, do some research and presentations and essay writing. For my community service, 3 hours I did on collecting donation which were held during my orientation week ( stupid activity!) and for the remaining 7 hours, me and my whole classmates went to a community centre and became as helpers for an event organised for family gathering. Something like that la..
Okay, back to my title. Part of our involvement, we are required to write a three pages of essay on personal reflections. The requirements were something like this :

"Describe one of your personal experiences which has made a difference in your life. This experience should be inspirational and/or educational in content. Describe what you went through, the obstacles you faced and how you overcame them. Discuss the consequences of your actions/decisions. Describe your thoughts and feelings and thoughts when you went through the experience."
Somemore :
"Reflect upon this experience and share how it has changed, influenced or affected you. What were the learning lessons/points you gained from the experience. How will you apply such learning lessons/points to your future dealings. What advice would you give others who are in a similar situation."
Lastly:
"Report should be three pages and type written. Single spacing and font size 12."

So, I decided to write about our Queen's Guide story loh.. The title is "My journey of becoming a Queen's Guide". Well, I guess the reason I choosed to write about queen guide is because I think I have a lot of things to write about it. Besides, we learnt a lot of new things and lesson from overall our involvement in that award thing. Well, before that the teacher even informed us that if our essay is good and can inspired other students, they might think of publishing it in somewhere where the whole school can read it. But of course first the teacher do ask our permission whether to allow them publish our essay IF we are selected. Well, I said yes but only can publish in anonymously. Which mean without my name at d end of the essay. And surprise surprise, I am one of those selected to publish our essay in the bulletin board. Haha... I guess they are interested with my story especially the part I mention about getting the award from the Queen of Malaysia. =) Well, I really surprised when my essay was choosen to be published. But the problem is that I still have no idea where they gonna post it. Haiz................

Upclose to my weekend. I'm finally back in my hometown - Malacca; after 1 month. Oh, how I miss everything here so so much~

Somethings never change :

• My dad is ever so cute as always - he has a tummy now. Did I mention he's cute? Ahaks!
• My mum is still the skinny lady since she was my age! Need to feed her more.!
• My little brother is stil as loving as ever

AND the number one thing that never did change was my late night chats with my brother. Aha! That is something I was longing for 4 a very very long time. I guess we spent at least 5 hours just talking about his life and mine. Yeah, he's only 15 but he not too young to understand about his life and me. Well, practically, he's the best brother I could ever had. Sometimes, it makes me wanna just hug him for the moments when he bangs my head with realisation about my life. For a person , so young and tender at age, he's remarkable.

I went back to Pakard and meet up with my ex-colleagues. Lee was still looking the same. The moment he entered the shop, I could hear the same voice again. " OH, Vanilla!" Kak Along was still looking petite and sweet- as always. Just one difference, she's having short hair now. Alvin was still working there - salesman. Hmm, that's all the people that were still working there. I got my present donefor Andrew done at Pakard. It was a nice photo framed up with words for his birthday. Aww, I hope he liked it.

Just when I thought that my life was going no where but to the happy side, I received a heartbreaking text message. It was painful at first. But after a while, I realised that I never felt happier in my life.

YEAH. I"m serious. I NEVER FELT HAPPIER.

Seeing you happy would make me happy too; eventhough that was not what I wanted in the first place. Now, I can only sit and hope for the best for both of you. I just hope you wouldn'tforget that I was part of your life once before.

*THINKING HARD*

There's no point holding on the chance; hoping for something that would not come again. Kinda sad thing to ponder about - You couldn't wait till the end of the year. I wanted to say something. But now, I guess it's too late.

~ Going off in a moment. I have a wonderful wedding dinner to attend. My mother's cousin is getting married. ~ Well, I guess, it's not merely what I want that will make me happy, but perhaps what makes him happy makes me happy too.