It's hard to forget him...

There's one this guy...I knew him from my club. He's my senior, graduating this year. Basically, I liked him since the first time I saw him. It's funny, but yup...I fall in love with him the first time I saw him and that was during my club briefing. They had this something like a talk to tell more about the club and what kind of expectations they would expect from the new members. So yup, he was invited to the front to give a talk cos he holds some high position in the club. Thought he was a malay, based on his skin colour. Guess what...when I saw him, all my mind said was, "wow, this guy is so good-looking". I didn't really listen to what he was talking about, I was focusing more on his face. Haha... But I also told myself that 'No! Remember...you can't go with Malay guy!'. But it only last for a while when I finally found out that he's a Chinese, which caused my feeling to him started all over again! However, it's not his look that makes me fall into him. Because if I like someone bcos of his look, my feeling to that guy will not last for a long time. It was his personality that caused me to fall for him until almost a year by now. He's a nice and really an-easy-going person. I feel so easy to mix around with him. He crack jokes most of the time. I love being around with people who crack jokes around. It makes me easy to talk with them. So yup, from time to time my feeling for him growing stronger and stronger. You will never believe me but I decided to tell him my feeling during our club Annual Dinner & Dance this Saturday. But something stops me from doing what I'm about to do. My sis, added him in MSN. She didn't meant anything. She just thought of making friend with him and see what is so special about him until her 'this-little-sister' can fall into him M-A-D-L-Y. Recently my sis chatted with him in the MSN. He told my sis that he likes this one gurl and he even confessed to her recently. Worst, I know who is this gurl. She's in the club too. To be frank, I did notice that this guy been hanging around quite a lot with the gurl lately. But I tried to convince myself that they are just friends since I heard that the gurl already has a boyfriend. But...to really find out the truth that the guy actually confessed to the gurl really hurts me a lot. How stupid I am for trying to lied to myself that he and that gurl are not having any special feeling to each other when it was pretty obvious there is something going on between them!! I talked to the guy in the MSN few days ago. I even told him that I have something to tell him. He wanted me to tell him at that time itself. But I guess I still don't have the nerve to confess to him yet during that time. But after knowing that he just confessed to another gurl, I don't think I will ever tell him my feeling towards him. I don't see any point telling him that I like him when I knew that he likes another gurl.. To be frank, I don't feel like going to my club Annual Dinner & Dance anymore bcos I don't feel like I have the guts to face him after knowing all the truth. I worried that he can sense the coldness in me towards him. Even the gurl, I don't know how to face her. I know it's not her fault that the guy fall for her. But I feel like it's not my fault too that I can't treat her nicely after knowing everything that is going on between the guy and her. My sis told me that they gurl still haven't give any answer yet but I couldn't care less about it. I don't want to know anything about him anymore. I hurts me more and more. I'm trying very hard now not to think about the guy anymore. But I guess it will take me some times to really get ride of him from my mind. Its hard...but I will try. I think he's the first guy that I really falls into. It's okay....I guess I just need time to really forget him and look for another guy. After all people alway say: There are a lot more fishes in the sea...

ANYWAY VAN, I'm planning to stay at your place if confirm I go to KL. I don't know anybody else except You & Tze Min in KL.. Is that okay with you??! Anyway, so far I plan to go back on 16th till 27th of March. So I'll be going to KL somewhere in between those dates. Just asking...is it has to be weekend? Can I go weekdays???!