Who Can U Trust?

I'm alone right now in my room in campus. Thinking about what a certain someone has just said. It's merely making me feel bad about myself but isn't it just enough?

I'm trying to tell you nicely that I don't want to get involved in your life anymore. Listening to you talk about your life and your decisions is just making me die out of life. I may sound depressing but to this extent, I don't know what I should do?

*Thinking hard*

You can really make me feel bad. With your words. You- have the power to make me weak inside, thinking that I can trust no one but you. No one is better than you. You fill my head with statements that I could even trust myself.

"She's not your friend"
"She told me so and so, you can't trust her anymore"
"It's not me! It was your friend who told me"

So, precisely, who can I trust again?

Damn it. Why have I been so naive thinking that going away to another state would make my past run dry and eventually go away? Right this moment, I just need someone to be honest with me. Tell me if I'm a bitch. Tell me if I'm the girl you hate. Tell me if I've done something to deserve what I'm going through now. I don't wan anyone who claims to be my friend and ends up like a backstabbing bitch or jerk.

So, leave if you don't like what you're reading. I'm just trying to find out who are my friends.

Ask me if you want to know something about me. Don't ask someone else who u think is close to me. But the truth is, nothing is nearer to my heart than pain.

* PAIN * My Heart Is Closer Into Breaking To Smaller Pieces That I, Myself Can't Put Them Back.
I just want you to be back where we were. Good friends that can trust each other. Be the one I once trusted. Be the one who listens to my problems late at night. Be the one I once loved.

To the friends I've just known, be truthfully. I have enough of these dramas.