Stuff Out From My Heart~

Sitting down at my chair, I began to wonder who I really reflect myself. Dharma classes can really make you guilty. With all the past deeds and karma? I can't begin to think how my life would be like in the next life? God? Buddha? Ghost? Or perharps a human again?

Worries.. Worriess...


"It's better being single. You can do anything you want. But you just have to deal with one small thing - LONELINESS."

Yeah. True. Totally true. Dealing with loneliness is the hardest thing to do. I have friends. Nice friends who never leave my sight for a second. But how long would they last? I'll be far gone from this college - INTI. And you might ask. Where to after that?

Exams are going to be over this November. And I'll be right back at Malacca. Where all my friends in college have scattered around the world. Not to mention, friends from sec school that can not be found anymore. Yeah, there are segelintir that went to Form6. But what about the others.?

Notice that I have a lot of questions? Darn. I don't know about you.But I'm feeling more lonely than ever. Not to mention, feeling sorry for myself.

"Photons give away all their energy to electrons to be accelerated out of the metal surface. Whole heartedly. The electrons will now have enough energy to flirt when they're out of the metal surface. Photons only give out their energy once; they will die soon after doing so..."

So, replace the photons with females. And replace the electrons with males.

So even Physics proves the male and female attraction?

Tell me again why do I feel the sudden prick in my heart whenever I see you?

Because I miss you, you idiot. Don't you get it? :(

I won't say I don't miss you. Because I just do. But when I realise that you don't care about me anymore, tears just filled my tears. Filling the eyes but not the time to fall down yet. These past few months, all I've been trying to do is to avoid you. Taking a step to college is one of them. So am I the only darn idiot who still keeps your letters and emails and everything that has to do with you?

I'm just PLAIN stupid.

But it all ends well, I suppose. I'm feeling lonely. Yeah. I know. I get the depressing part. But I'm feeling more happier with my friends around. Happier than ever since we were gone, lost and seperated.

Sometimes, I can't stop myself from thinking what would happen if I hadn't been such a pain in the arse. Or mayb how would things be like you would just understand how much pain I'm going thru without you.

RIGHT. ENOUGH.

I told myself I'm over you. But fact is, I still love you. What am I to do?

Conclusion = Be a noble gas. No sharing bonds, no taking bonds and no giving away any or whatso ever bonds to anyone.